Love My Hair!

I have been IN LOVE with my hair since it was done!!! I love having different colors in it!! It's so nice to be able to color my hair the way I want now! 8 years of military control over my hair is done and it's so dang nice to do it the way I want to!

One more SOA pic!

This was taken last week on the SOA set. I have to admit, though I love actors it takes alot for me to work up the nerve to ask them for a pic!

Left to right: Mitch Pileggi "Darby"; Me!!!; Dayton Callie "Cheif Wayne Unser"; Mark Boone Junior "Robert 'Bobby' Munson"

This morning so far...

My daughter...she is definitely in a class by herself! We went grocery shopping this weekend and bought a huge box of waffles...well, she wanted to make that box into a Barbie house, so that was our project Saturday afternoon. Apparently the Barbies have moved out and the cats have moved in. They are so good to her...letting her play with them and smoosh them into different places. Here they are in their new Barbie house...poor kitties!




And here is the darling cat lover now!

I have PAGES!!!

Thanks to this post I now have two pages for this blog! That's so awesome!!! I will be adding a few more pages, but I wanted to get a public "thank you" out to this amazing blogger! These are the easiest instructions I have ever found for adding pages to Blogger!

I also wanted to make it known to readers that I have a "share this" button added to the bottom of all my posts...now if you like what you read you can click "share this" and share it on twitter, face book, friend feed and email!!!

Get my blog out there! Lets get me over 1000 views!

August 4th

Regarding all things, only understand that there must be no attachment. No attachment means that feelings of hate and love do not arise

Now from my readings of forums and books it's come to my understanding that many believe that Buddhism preaches dis-attachment from society and things. This is completely untrue. Buddhism teaches that unhealthy attachment is bad. By unhealthy it is my understanding that an absolute desire to own and posses is the bad attachment. For example, what is happening with my mother. Her unhealthy attachment to my daughter is what lead to her first suicide attempt---that is a bad attachment. It is ok to have an attachment and a love for someone, but when that love turns from the unselfish desire to protect and be with someone to the driving obsession to own and control that's when it gets bad. To love a child or a spouse is a good thing, as long as it is done in the right way. Love is a great emotion, but one has to realize that the love is just that love. It's not an arm of control or ownership, it's love. Unselfish love means letting someone do their own thing and still offering support and compassion to that person. By loving someone and not letting that love turn into an all encompassing attachment is the right way to love someone. The same goes for material possessions. It's ok to really like the TV you just bought, but when the "love" for your TV turns into an addiction and takes over your daily activities you have a huge problem and you just opened a huge gateway for suffering. When the desire to have the TV that everyone has, you have a problem. When the desire to own that TV (because you think it will make you happy, or your think it will make everyone like you) leads you to ignore your family in pursuit of the money to buy the TV you have created an unhealthy attachment for a material object and now you are suffering and so is your family.

Makes sense to me. Anyone else?

August 3rd

There is only one reality, neither to be realized or attained. To say "I am able to realize something" or "I am able to attain something" is to place yourself among the arrogant.

Today's Zen Buddhist reflection. I'm not too sure that I get it. I will definitely think about this today until I can understand a little bit. It will more than likely take longer than today since I haven't had a smoke in about 12 hours and I"m going crazy...lots of meditation and squats today.

I need to quit

I need to quit smoking. I have tried several times, but I just need to quit. My gums are HURTING and I am more than certain that it has to do with my smoking. I STINK and it's just NASTY!!!! SO! Here we go. I have one more pack to go and then I'm done. And in that pack there are only like 8 left...so today I will be done.

No guarantees and no promises. I might go back to it, but I'm going to give it a shot. I don't need cigarettes to be calm. I have learned other methods to relax. I have used every excuse under the sun...if I need a quiet moment I can go in my room and meditate..that's healthier for me anyway. If I need a smoke I can do squats till my butt hurts. I can do crunches till I wanna barf. I'm going to really give this a shot.

Wish me luck!