A promise to myself...

I will be the best ...
I will be the best mom...
I will be the best wife...
I will be the best woman...
I will be the best person...
I will be the best nurse...
I will be the best friend...
That I can be.

I will be the best me.

I can't promise to be the best ever, the most I can do is promise to be the best ME that I can be. I can't be perfect, I can only be and will only ever be perfectly imperfect. If you love me, it the flaws and the fight that you love. You will love my little "frustrated" face that my husband adores so much. You will love me despite of and because of my inborn fear of being late- knowing that though I chastise you for running late, I will always be early- and will be there whnever you need me. You will love me because I demand the best of you and everyone else. You will appreciate that I never expect you to always be right, but I expect you to have reason for your actions. You will love me because even though we don't always agree I challenge why you feel what you feel; and will call you on your bullshit. You will love me because I demand loyalty, even if you aren't always loyal to me. You will love me because I hold honesty close to my heart, even though there are times you just don't want to hear the truth. Because you love me, you will pay me the same respect- you will always be honest.

Above all, because you love me you understand that my fierce loyalty will lead me to love you with all that I am- and you will know that because I love you, I will not let anyone ever hurt you.


-thoughts of the busy momma

And my seconterm comes to a close...

Finals are next week. It's a great thing, however, a little bitter sweet. I had a great time with my friends in class these last 9 weeks and though I didn't pass my challenege test, it's bittersweet. Bitter cause I have to pay for easy classes, sweet because I get to be with my friends from here on out!

I absolutely can't wait for finals!!! The rest after that will be nice!!! I am planning on painting my room and the kids room, if Im not too scared, I'll do the living room too (and if John agrees).

Right now I'm sitting in my firesafety class wanting to DANCE!!! The instructor has music blasting and I love it!!! I'm thinking my study group will have to go out dancing afterfinals! Dress up and party!!!!




-thoughts of the busy momma

Life moves on....

Just a post to post. I'm bored sitting at starbuks right now queitly waiting for my study group to appear eavesdropping on peoples conversations. I have the "ex-con" who spent a whole four days in county, the hormonal teen boys punching each other because they want a bite of their friends food, the quickly trying to be mature teen girls and the too rich with no real life house wives. It's funny. Everyone thinks their life and stories are so important, but is anyone else going to remember them tomorrow? Life is funny. Every futile attempt to make a connection is just that, futile. However, as a species it's what we do. We are social beings who need interaction. Whether the interaction is a feeling of mutuality over a shared 4 day stay in county; a connection over the cute boy that either girl is afraid to talk to or just the bemoanings from one woman to the other about how Nordstroms doesn't have the Lui bag she wants. And quietly sits the homeless man. The man that no one talks to because they are afraid, they think he's weird, he smells, he has terrettes. It's a weird world we live in. Whether connections are made or not, we will wake up tomorrow and try again to make more futile connections and one day after hundreds of attempts, maybe 10 will be made and as an animal in the human species you will be mildly content.


-thoughts of the busy momma

Hair and makeup for the busy student!!

A friend of mine asked me to do this write up for her blog, but since I am wanting to write it and have it accessible for her, I will write it here too! Here's the deal, I am a mom with two children, two cats, a dog, a husband and my own schedule on top of all this to deal with! Hair and makeup need to be FAST and CUTE!

Here's the tools for the makeup!

Step 1: Foundation

Using a foundation brush you can get a more "air brushed" look with out looking "cakey"

Step 2: Creme eye shadow base

Light cream first all over eye

Darker cream on lid up to crease

Here is what it looks like

Using a cream base will allow for a brighter looking eye shadow that sticks on longer. I use ONLY E.L.F. make up for the most part (eyes) so if you like the look you can find it at http://www.elf.com

Step 3: Powder shadow

Using a wider brush, pat the lighter shadow all over eye lid, from brow to lash line. Go ahead and go over the darker cream with the light...the darker cream will still show up.

Darker shadow gets a light spread from inner corner of eye to outer corner on the eye lid below the crease. Once the lighter layer is spread, concentrate on building a darker shade on the outer corner....mini-smokey eye with out the blending hassel.

Here's the powder

Step 4: Cream eyeliner

Cream eyeliner allows you to have a thicker line, thinner line or to even blend easily if you want to. I didn't blend it this time because I just didn't feel like it! LOL!

Using a flat stiff brush smooth on liner starting out outer corner going about three quarters of the way into the upper lid, and about 1/4 on the bottom lashes. Using your finger, "pull" the bottom liner "into" your eye going toward the inner corner, it will smudge nicely and look more natural and less harsh.

Step 5: Mascara

Step 6: Power and translucent setting powder

I use the setting powder after the colored powder because it gives a more "air brushed" look hiding imperfections. ELF has a great powder for $6- totally amazing and blows my MAC powder out of the water!

Step 7: admire the finished product!

Now, i'm always lazy when it comes to hair- the quicker the better! I usually go for the messy bun look. Brush out the tangles. Hold onto the sing. Flip your hair up and down like a heavy metal head banger and pull the pony tail up high. After a few wraps of the band, stop when the hair is half way through the pony tail holder and ta da! Messy bun!

                                                  

Huge problem with this article

http://feeds.latimes.com/~r/latimes/news/local/~3/NCff8QCzi_E/la-me-beliefs8-2010mar08,0,4323030.story

Problem #1- they are encouraging already very low income women to not have abortions because "god" says it's evil and he will be displeased. Did "god" ever once give them a psych class explainingthe difficulties and disabilities that arise in children from very low income areas? Let's name a few- lower IQ, more suseptability to crime (either being a victim or committing a crime), astronomically higher rates of abuse, astronomically higher rate of that child also becoming an impovershed young parent, astronomically higher rate of not even getting a highschool diploma, and that's just a short list. Let's go on to problem
2

#2- there is no proof of God. They are basing these young womens fear and future hopes in a mythological being- not teaching them the facts. Why not have a motorhome that hands out condoms, performs papsmears and then hands out birth control or condoms and offers empowering lessons for these women to stand up and gain sexual control? Teach them that sex does not mean love and that they can choose to have sex or not have sex.

#3- let's look at the financial aspect. Is this Christian organization handing out monthly welfare checks to sustain these women and their children, or are they dumping that on the federal gov door step? Church and state were seperated. The church should NEVER encourage something the state will have to foot the bill for.

#4- of these "counsellors" is there ONE who is a licensed therapist? Or are they all quacks who "talk to god" and get their answers from him? Yeah, you read that right, quacks. If I believed that Zues was talking to me, I'd be a nut case, so should the same belief be handed to these people.

#4 my list of problems goes on and on. Just think objectively. You too will see my point.


-thoughts of the busy momma

Busy weekend!

So, Friday was an all day study fest, and once the kids were out of school it was time to see Alice in Wonderland!!! Oh they loved it!! How wonderful! I loved it! However, it wasn't really Alice in Wonderland, it was Burton's take on Through the looking glass- and he did an amazing job!! I have to find both books to read to the kids!

Saturday was spent dealing with crap, and Saturday night Mick and I headed to Ikea. I had to get lamps for the bedroom, but wasn't quite sure what I wanted. It was pouring Saturday night and Mick and I didn't have umbrellas- we had a great time running through the parking lot jumping through puddles cracking up and looking like drowned rats! I also sent some wedding pics to be printed. Today was study group in the morning as usual and a million and two stops on the way back. After all the errands and getting wet in the rain here's the outcome!

Before decorating




Another before



How blah. I was very unsettled with the looks. Just wasn't comforting or cozy looking.

Here's the after :





Much better!!!!


-thoughts of the busy momma

Week's almost over!!!

Dad finally came home yesterday! He was transfered to another hospital and had the angiogram and stint put in and was itching to leave yesterday, and now he is comfortably home! Mick and Alex are thrilled!!!


The mattress guy finally delivered the new mattresses yesterday. We were supposed to get them Tuesday, but there was some mix up and we got em yesterday. The guy calls and asks, "Do you have someone to help you bring them in?" and I said, "Isnt that your job?" and he said they only do curb side delivery. WTF?!?! So the douche just put them in the hallway and my great neighbor helped me set them all up! She's a doll! Last nights sleep was awesome! John got home from work at 4am and when he got into bed I put my arm out and couldn't touch him!!! Yay for king beds!!! I can't push him out of bed!! To cuddle I had to scoot all the way to his side! Freaking awesome!



Mid terms were this week. Life span I got an 87 and the freaking portal is down so I can't check my biochem grade! Hopefull he'll have it in class for us! I wanna know what I got!!!!

Off to finish the rest of the week now!! I love my life! Great husband, awesome kids and a rockin dad!

-thoughts of the busy momma